Dear diary,
My hard-drive filled up today. 1TB of storage. That’s a lot of data… that I am keeping to myself.
How selfish of me. I better get up off my tush and start making some content for all of this to pay off.
The other day, I narrowed in on my dream. It was (used to be, but still kinda is) a dream to open an online store and to make a living off of my creations. But this little jellybean (me), I have a problem. It’s called… I am a “Multipotentialite”, it sounds ridiculous, and it is ridiculous. I cannot hone in on one thing. I love all of my hobbies. I love creating random things, I don’t always want to make 100 of the same thing… you know?
SOOOOO, in narrowing in on my dream, I am just going to make the things that I want to make. As different and obscure as they may be from each other (The art stuff is kinda same-same though). I will be sharing with you my creative process for the things that I make. Whether it’s through a video on youtube, sharing a picture on Instagram (which I have been neglecting lately, apologies apple-oh jeez), or I may find myself here, writing a nice little blog post about the thing. I cannot guarantee that I will be doing all of the above for all of the things, I am only mostly human. Does that make sense of my dream? Make the things I want to make and share it with whoever may stumble upon it.
This is a stream of consciousness, a trail of thought written with no backspaces. I am glad humoured that I found the strikeout option for text.
I think that this is a good little place to hold myself accountable. My accounts are paying for this space and my time was spent making it look kinda pretty, so I may as well fill it with the bushiness (< leaf reference) that’s going on in my mind to get started.
What kicked me up off my glutes to FINALLY make my website? I made some business cards, and I felt they were quite incomplete without a website to direct people to. Then I had to gather in everything else that I have longed and wished to do and here I am… procrastinating >.<.
I may as well continue doing so and tell you the story of my day.
I visited my grandparents today, along with my sister and cousin. My grandmother suggested we go for a walk. I got excited and further suggested that we visit the produce store around the block. Well, this produce store has some beautiful birds and guinea pigs for sale, along with a bunch of farm animals that you can see and pet (pat?) too.
After recently re-rediscovering that it is still not a good time to get a puppy, my mind went “DING” I want a guinea pig!
So off we went to the produce store. I recorded some footage that may never be seen. Saw some donkeys, goats, chickens, geese.. apparently ducks but I missed them somehow. And then we saw some birds (canaries, budgies, little parrots), and they were very cute. I distracted myself at the birds for a hot minute, because I knew the guinea pigs were just down the aisle… My sister called me over “Jac, here are the guinea pigs” she says, luringly as she knows I can be a bit impulsive when my mind gets like this. I saw the guinea pigs, found the only cool one and hastily approached a shop worker to ask if I could hold him. The shop person said yes, and I had like 15 minutes of totally adorable cuddles with this guinea pig while thinking of all the ways I could make it work if I brought him home, and all of the little capes and hats I would design for him.
I then realised the shop assistant was waiting for me, and I thought that 15 minutes was a long enough “break-time” for him, so I put the guinea pig back. I did not get the guinea pig. Nor did I shut up about the guinea pig.
As I was leaving my grandparents place, my grandmother gave me some wise words (after talking about my dream getting kicked into gear and such) she said “Do your work, then get the guinea pig”. These are the words I am currently living by. There is a lot of work, but I will do it, or most of it… No, I will do it, then I will get a guinea pig. I could visit the produce store for some piggie cuddles before then though, but that is sounding like more procrastination. Ok, shush brain.
And that is one leaf that I can let fall/ flow off my mind for this day. It may not be of anything to you, but it has made my day that I am writing and doing this “dream” thing. Thank you for reading my nonsense, I appreciate you! Happy Sunday, have a great week ahead. Much love –
Jacky B. x
PS. I did use the backspace button for spelling mishaps and punctuation errors. But the rest is really running from my mind to my fingertips. I hope it’s literate readable.